Monday, October 20, 2008

...in my mind



why am I typing this...I just started and this just poured out...so again, why am I typing this


#1--Ughh, I was in high school and I wanted her bad...lol and I fell in the friend zone hard..oh, it was the worst, trust...she was askin' me to hook her up with my homeboys..it was horrible...

#2--I saw her roommate studying by herself and I tried to start spitting my immaculate game at her, then she came out of nowhere...we talked for a long time...no, I mean we talked for a long time (the worst)...I was to inexperienced, as well as the corniest nigga on the planet at the time (yeah, I was lyin' about the game being immaculate lol)...so I blew what should have happened...I still put her on a certain pedestal though...on the low lol...

#3--The only first girl to have the official title of my girlfriend. She broke up with me and broke me on the low..ie that Gnarls Barkley video..if I'm Kanye, then she's Alexis..but whatever, she's good..I've got nothing bad to say about her

#4--prototype kind of..because in a sense, I kinda handpicked her on some mail-order bride type shit (either you understand or you don't..that last statement was definitely not on some psycho shit...)..but...I don't know...it couldn't work out...I thought of every possible way for it to, but long distance can never work. I felt like I was just holding her back...for her to be devoutly faithful to 'ten thousand miles away' T...lol...I felt like it was the right thing to do...and hope she finds nothing but happiness...

#5--lol when I first met her...I was in the 'setlle-down' mind set...and she seemed like the 'settle down' type. Never judge a book by it's cover, I guess...(the cover of this book was like, one of those teen movie nerds, lol like once you take off the glasses you got this bangin'-ass dime piece..)..she was the complete opposite. Attractive, yes...but her way thinking made her more suitable as a good as fuck buddy...the worst thing to say, but the best way to describe it. The worst thing about it is that feeling grew, but to this day, I don't know if her feelings mirrored mine..because deep down it always felt like there was a hidden agenda. I couldn't take that type of gamble, so I cut her off...we speak now though...and I'm out of 'hater-mode', so I'll let her use me to strengthen her business ventures, i guess...she wins...

#6--ok...this is how the story goes, a girl comes to me with the 'my roommate likes you' routine. At this time, I might have been on the strongest drought of all-time, so I entertained. Second day of meeting the roommate..I smashed (it would have been the first day, but her little sister was blocking)...over the month, she became a regular late night stop...
let me go back in the story, the first day I met her, she mentioned some 'boyfriend' nonsense, but I let her know from the get go..hells no..I was fresh off of the KanyexAlexis thing...and on the whole 'fuck these bitches' mind state...ok, sooo weeks into us messing around she started bringing up the boyfriend shit more, which were major red flags to me...so I sat her down and let her know that if she was looking for a boyfriend I didn't think we should be messing around...she started cryin' about how she understood and all, but I knew she was lyin'..so I slowly and easily started cutting her off..
ok, let me wrap this shit up...I'm at a party and one of her roommates corners me like, why are treating this girl like this, you're not a man, a real man wouldn't treat his girlfriend like this...wow..first off I got a little mad at this girl telling people we were a couple, and confronted her..kinda under the influence, and maybe, in what some would consider, a rude way..but she told she was sorry and she only told her roommates...that didn't make anything better in mind...I just couldn't understand why she was fiendin' so hard for a boyfriend. Or better yet, trying to be in a relationship, with someone who adamant on telling you he doesn't want a relationship with...my conclusion was she just lied to her roommates to give a reasonable answer on why I'm always coming over (no girl likes to be depicted as a slut...except for sluts lol..)..but who knows...I had to cut that off..no regrets, except for the fact that her lame ass roommates run around tryin' to throw dirt on my name...but it doesn't bother me..if it makes them feel better, by all means..lol..

#7-- I thought I wanted her but I really don't…sooo she's slowly but surely getting cut off…p.s. I hate wigs/weaves/synthetic joints/clip ins/ clip ons/sew ins/whatever/od’ness/..jus sayin’..sorry…

#8-- she's probably the poster child of why people say I have a weird taste in females...her and number 1 & 2…they try to say it about number 6, but I didn't find her attractive either..but back to the main subject number 8...hmmm, she, out of all the ones before, would know what I'm talking about if I started talkin' nonsense...this blog for me was an outlet for my weirdness, you know...when I go out with my homeboys, we don't ride out to Theophilus London, you know what I mean...I would sometimes like to, but...idk...it's weird...
let me start all over...you know when dude's say that they see their mother in their significant other...well in #8, I see myself...I can't get mad at her...and I fucks with her hard..but I fucked with a lot of these numbers at one point in time...we'll see what the future holds...I'm not gonna describe this one, I'll keep everyone in the dark, for now...

#9--Ms. Lohan..you are bangin’ lol.. I think so..but everyone else seems to think I'm crazy whenever I point her out...BANGIN'..and I'm gonna get her...I won't spill the beans on anyone of these girls identity, but if I'm asked about this one...I'll tell...lol...every time someone hates on her (yeah, I call it hate) I want her more...man, she's poppin'..I'm talking kinda crazy because I don't even really know her...like if you went up to her and asked about me, she would describe me in an unflattering manner, that's if she even remembers me...but I want her..bad...I don't care who knows..I'll scream it from the mountain tops...sorry..lol..

who knows…

Salut
Fly Ty

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